I'm Still Alive I Promise!

So, my blog posts have *seriously* been lacking. I have been slammed with work, that I didn't have time. So, my posts have been missing. I have had a lot of good ideas but I have just been running around making plans TWO weeks in advance, and just trying to juggle this thing called life. (it's fun, but needs a lot of attention).
I also did not realize how much blogging keeps me same, I was talking with my best friend Rachael and I was telling her how I missed my blog and she said to me "well, it's your creative outlet". It really does help you figure out things in your life even if your blogging isn't always deep and insightful. #isthatweird

Anyways, enough about my crazy beautiful life, lets talk about a subject that I am itching to cover.

Acceptance.

So, if you were to ask me where I'd be in five years ago when I was 21, I'd tell you something along the lines of, "I'd have my own apartment, I'd have a job and go to school, I'd have a life planned out ahead of me, ect. ect." Well, I am 21 now, and I am so happy with where I am in life.

I realized the other night that I am almost done with college, and I am one step closer to the real world. I have about a year and a half left (Yayyyyy summer classes). I realized that this next summer I will have to find another internship to work, and I will have to be able to get my resume looking spiffy, and I need to start looking at apartments, (I was sat in my room making mental lists for my future). I realized something, what's meant to be will be.

I can sit in my room and make some five year plan of where I want to be, how I want things to be, what I imagine them to be. But, the thing is, life happens. Whether I like it or not life does what it wants. I can not control where the next day takes me, all I can do is take it one hour at a time (I would say one day at a time, but, lets be real...a lot can change in 60mins).

When I finished making up all these mental lists, I realized that I am beyond pleased with where my life is headed, and where I am at in life. I realized that I am a smart, confident, and I have so much going for me. That the fear, and the anxiety I was having was based off of the fact that I was not being accepting.

I know how far I have come. Even better, when I realized how far I've come, I felt a wave of relaxation and peace. All that was happening was that I was coming to an acceptance with where I am in life and where I am going in life.

It was one of the best feelings you could ever have. Honestly.

Have you ever had a life realization that leaves you feeling more content than when you woke up? (does that question even make sense?)

Keep Calm and Carry On
xoxo
Melissa