I Really Hate Goodbyes

Goodbye is hard, wouldn't you agree? Saying goodbye is hard because you don't usually want to, saying goodbye (in my case) meant saying goodbye to one of my fur babies. And this goodbye, it wasn't a temporary goodbye. This was an "I'll see you in heaven goodbye". It was the goodbye that hurt my heart, and made me cry tears until my eyes were dry and itchy. Yesterday I said goodbye to my best friend and companion. It was probably the hardest thing I have had to do. Scotchie was 16 years old and had diabetes and over the last two weeks his illness and his age was taking over his body. I didn't want to see him go but I knew in my heart that his life was no longer a happy life. 

When we first got Scotchie, I picked him out because he was this rich apricot color, and he was so energetic, being a kid, I loved the fact that he wanted to play with me. Right then and there my mom and I fell in love with this furry bundle of joy. When we brought him home, I kept on telling her that he looked like butterscotch candies and that I wanted to name him butterscotch (I was a very insistent child that the dog have that name). However my mom told me to shorten it so I picked Scotchie, it was simply unique to him. I wanted him to have a name that was different from other dogs as well (so thanks mom for making me think outside the box a little bit). 

He ALWAYS wanted to be the center of attention, as I did my homework he'd sit on my book bag as if to say "this is what I think about your school work....it's boring"

He even went to Phipps Plaza and went inside Tiffany's (the ruff life)

And sometimes he did housework because he liked to use the carpet as a lawn. 

Scotchie provided me with late night cuddles, he always knew how to sneak food (even the food he wasn't supposed to have). I don't really know what else to say besides the fact that he really was my best friend, and while today is easier I miss him. I am sure I will continue to miss him, and he hopefully misses me too. I know that he can do much more in dog heaven than what he was doing on earth. 

(the proof)

I was given 16 wonderful years with such a wonderful gift. Sometimes I think that he knew when I was upset or when  I needed more cuddles than usual. I'd like to think that he loved his life with me and my family as much as I loved him. I didn't want to say goodbye, and I still don't think its 100% real that I said goodbye.

So if Scotchie could read I would tell him this: You gave me 16 wonderful years of love and attention. I will never forget how much I loved you, and I hope you knew that you really meant the world to me. I know Emma will have to step up to the plate and get into more trouble since you're not around. Thank you for being the best dog to me, and thank you for always giving me cuddles and love. Keep smiling Scotchie and remember that mommy, daddy, sissy and emma love you so much. 

xoxo

Melissa