No matter what I do whether it be weight loss, friendships, how many friends I have, the amount of work I get done in a day, how organized I am, or if my nails are painted the right way. I am *always* looking for ways to better myself (or perfect myself). It honestly never ends *like ever*.
It sometimes gets to the point where I realize that I have just focused so much on improving myself or making things better that I forget how far I have come!
Six years ago I was not the same person I am today (#realtalk I hope we are all different people than who we were six years ago) But, personally I have made so, so, so, many improvements to my life.
But I find that I forget how far I have come. I get so involved in improving my appearance, my grades, my life, my relationships that I actually start to get anxious and I come about two inches from my self destruct button where I go into this hole of what ifs, and I'm not good enough's, and I am not pretty/skinny enough. (yeah it really *really* stinks).
I get so wrapped up in all of that. *yuck* that I fail to look back and see what an amazing life I actually have. While I realize that life always can have improvements in the future, sometimes I have to accept whats in front of me.
I need to see that I have climbed up my life version of Mount Everest *but really, that's what its felt like some days*.
I think we can all agree that we have "fat days" where we just feel like the size of Honey Boo Boo's mom and our jeans look awful on us, and that shirt we love makes us look horrific. But, sometimes I need to look around me and take a step back from my life and look at my life from an outsides perspective.
1. I have lost 35 pounds in four months.
2. I have transferred to a major university where I am loving everyday of it.
3. I have absolutely *awesomely* amazing friends.
4. I have a fabulous boyfriend that makes me laugh, smile, and he makes feel comfortable around him, almost always.
5. I am the person I have always wanted to be in this moment.
When I step back and take a look at how far I have come it doesn't seem like my life isn't perfect anymore.
In this moment of time I am right where I am supposed to be. And that good enough in my life is good enough.
#realtalk better things may come along in my future but right now I am right where I am supposed to be.
Because really, *sorry to repeat* #goodenoughisgoodenough.
Now, every time I feel upset, or not good enough, or not thin enough, I will tell myself my new life motto. Good enough, is good enough.
Do you ever feel the need to improve your life? Do you need to take a step back sometimes to see how far you've come?
Let me know below!
Keep Calm and Carry On
xoxo
Melissa
p.s In a couple of weeks
Rachael and I will be doing a link up for #realtalkwednesday -- can't wait to share more info with you about it!